Friday, September 20, 2013

September 21, 2013

Dear Lord...
I want to thank-you for giving me life. For giving me friends. For giving me family, both biological and not. You are truly amazing in the way you make our lives work. But I'd like to put in a letter to my readers today, to express how much you have done for me....

Tonight I went to a party at some good friends' house. I got to talking with a man who is both an adopted uncle and sort of a second father to me. We talked about life, and we talked about death, and the parts that feel in between. 

My life burdens me. I push it off, try to let it go, and go on, just like every other person on this earth. I keep beating my records for hardest time in my life. For example this last winter when EJ was born. That is a time I will never want to relive. looking back on that awful week, I'm not sure how I got through it. I don't even remember most of it. But I remember seeing him in the hospital for the first time, with all the wires hooked up to him, and I remember crying. because he was alive. And that made it worth it.

But other people have gone through problems, and they don't have the amazing family I do. And I pray for them every time I think of that time in that tiny hospital room. Because if it wasn't for my family, I never would have gotten through that time. 

Do you know how I define family? Someone who you would not only give your life for, but who you would trust with your life. You can really like someone, be really good friends, or even be related to someone, but would you put your life in their hands? Would you let them save you? Because that is exactly what Jesus asks us to do. He put his life in our hands, and we took ti away from Him. Now he asks that we give our lives to him, so that he can give it back. Don't you realize how awesome that is? 

Your life is not your own, but that also means the burdens that come with it, you don't have o carry those alone either. He's there for you.

Don't ever forget that.

Friday, September 13, 2013

September 13th 2013

Dear God...
Why are you always so good to me? When I have a really hard day you give me some one to talk to. When I need some one to make me laugh, when I need someone to make me cry on their shoulder who cared, you gave me someone to talk to who did all of those things. Why do you love me so much , Yahweh? You give me friends, and those closer than friends, and I can never repay you for that.

I guess that's the point, though, huh?

I can never repay you, Lord. In return I will try to live my life out shining you through my heart. I know I will lose my way sometimes, no matter how hard I try, but you have always turn me back around. Because you love me anyway.

Not nearly enough love from,

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

September 11 2013

Awesome Lord,
Please help me to take criticism gently. To accept others' view as well as my own.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

September 8th 2013

Thank-you Yahweh for answering my prayer and protecting my brother today. Things could have turned so much worse.
I love you more than is possible,

Thursday, September 5, 2013

September 5th, 2013

Dearest Friend~
Today was pretty good.I had some lovely bonding moments with my coworkers when the phones went down. And then came tonight. I went upstairs to write, and then was asked to hold the baby. Then that apparently ruined my evening. I misconstrued everything said, snapped at people, and cried a gallon of tears for, looking back, no reason. why do you bother with me, God? I'm a perfect image of what  good daughter shouldn't be, but you love me anyway. And help me through it. Please help me to be thankful for You as you master the servant's heart that I feel sure resides somewhere deep inside me.
Not nearly enough love from,

Sunday, September 1, 2013

September 1st, 2013

Dear God,
Wow. You are truly one who listens. This afternoon, I was feeling very dissatisfied with me and my life. One of my best friends is leaving this week and she won't be back until almost Christmas. I've been rethinking my life so often I should have a dry erase board so I know what I currently think. And then you gave me someone to talk to. You gave me a job to do. You made me feel needed. And gave me happiness with out my even knowing that that was what I needed. You are truly awesome, Father. Thank-you for caring about me even when I don't care about me.
Love from,

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

August 28th 2013

Thank you for always listening. A Father who always understands who I am and always has a moment to listen means so much to me, Lord. On that note, please help me to keep a level head today. Waking up was not pleasant and I'm feeling tired...