Dear Lord...
I want to thank-you for giving me life. For giving me friends. For giving me family, both biological and not. You are truly amazing in the way you make our lives work. But I'd like to put in a letter to my readers today, to express how much you have done for me....
Tonight I went to a party at some good friends' house. I got to talking with a man who is both an adopted uncle and sort of a second father to me. We talked about life, and we talked about death, and the parts that feel in between.
My life burdens me. I push it off, try to let it go, and go on, just like every other person on this earth. I keep beating my records for hardest time in my life. For example this last winter when EJ was born. That is a time I will never want to relive. looking back on that awful week, I'm not sure how I got through it. I don't even remember most of it. But I remember seeing him in the hospital for the first time, with all the wires hooked up to him, and I remember crying. because he was alive. And that made it worth it.
But other people have gone through problems, and they don't have the amazing family I do. And I pray for them every time I think of that time in that tiny hospital room. Because if it wasn't for my family, I never would have gotten through that time.
Do you know how I define family? Someone who you would not only give your life for, but who you would trust with your life. You can really like someone, be really good friends, or even be related to someone, but would you put your life in their hands? Would you let them save you? Because that is exactly what Jesus asks us to do. He put his life in our hands, and we took ti away from Him. Now he asks that we give our lives to him, so that he can give it back. Don't you realize how awesome that is?
Your life is not your own, but that also means the burdens that come with it, you don't have o carry those alone either. He's there for you.
Don't ever forget that.
Friday, September 20, 2013
Friday, September 13, 2013
September 13th 2013
Dear God...
Why are you always so good to me? When I have a really hard day you give me some one to talk to. When I need some one to make me laugh, when I need someone to make me cry on their shoulder who cared, you gave me someone to talk to who did all of those things. Why do you love me so much , Yahweh? You give me friends, and those closer than friends, and I can never repay you for that.
I guess that's the point, though, huh?
I can never repay you, Lord. In return I will try to live my life out shining you through my heart. I know I will lose my way sometimes, no matter how hard I try, but you have always turn me back around. Because you love me anyway.
Not nearly enough love from,
Moriah
Why are you always so good to me? When I have a really hard day you give me some one to talk to. When I need some one to make me laugh, when I need someone to make me cry on their shoulder who cared, you gave me someone to talk to who did all of those things. Why do you love me so much , Yahweh? You give me friends, and those closer than friends, and I can never repay you for that.
I guess that's the point, though, huh?
I can never repay you, Lord. In return I will try to live my life out shining you through my heart. I know I will lose my way sometimes, no matter how hard I try, but you have always turn me back around. Because you love me anyway.
Not nearly enough love from,
Moriah
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
September 11 2013
Awesome Lord,
Please help me to take criticism gently. To accept others' view as well as my own.
Love,
Moriah
Please help me to take criticism gently. To accept others' view as well as my own.
Love,
Moriah
Sunday, September 8, 2013
September 8th 2013
Thank-you Yahweh for answering my prayer and protecting my brother today. Things could have turned so much worse.
I love you more than is possible,
Moriah
I love you more than is possible,
Moriah
Thursday, September 5, 2013
September 5th, 2013
Dearest Friend~
Today was pretty good.I had some lovely bonding moments with my coworkers when the phones went down. And then came tonight. I went upstairs to write, and then was asked to hold the baby. Then that apparently ruined my evening. I misconstrued everything said, snapped at people, and cried a gallon of tears for, looking back, no reason. why do you bother with me, God? I'm a perfect image of what good daughter shouldn't be, but you love me anyway. And help me through it. Please help me to be thankful for You as you master the servant's heart that I feel sure resides somewhere deep inside me.
Not nearly enough love from,
Moriah
Today was pretty good.I had some lovely bonding moments with my coworkers when the phones went down. And then came tonight. I went upstairs to write, and then was asked to hold the baby. Then that apparently ruined my evening. I misconstrued everything said, snapped at people, and cried a gallon of tears for, looking back, no reason. why do you bother with me, God? I'm a perfect image of what good daughter shouldn't be, but you love me anyway. And help me through it. Please help me to be thankful for You as you master the servant's heart that I feel sure resides somewhere deep inside me.
Not nearly enough love from,
Moriah
Sunday, September 1, 2013
September 1st, 2013
Dear God,
Wow. You are truly one who listens. This afternoon, I was feeling very dissatisfied with me and my life. One of my best friends is leaving this week and she won't be back until almost Christmas. I've been rethinking my life so often I should have a dry erase board so I know what I currently think. And then you gave me someone to talk to. You gave me a job to do. You made me feel needed. And gave me happiness with out my even knowing that that was what I needed. You are truly awesome, Father. Thank-you for caring about me even when I don't care about me.
Love from,
Moriah
Wow. You are truly one who listens. This afternoon, I was feeling very dissatisfied with me and my life. One of my best friends is leaving this week and she won't be back until almost Christmas. I've been rethinking my life so often I should have a dry erase board so I know what I currently think. And then you gave me someone to talk to. You gave me a job to do. You made me feel needed. And gave me happiness with out my even knowing that that was what I needed. You are truly awesome, Father. Thank-you for caring about me even when I don't care about me.
Love from,
Moriah
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
August 28th 2013
Lord...
Thank you for always listening. A Father who always understands who I am and always has a moment to listen means so much to me, Lord. On that note, please help me to keep a level head today. Waking up was not pleasant and I'm feeling tired...
Moriah
Thank you for always listening. A Father who always understands who I am and always has a moment to listen means so much to me, Lord. On that note, please help me to keep a level head today. Waking up was not pleasant and I'm feeling tired...
Moriah
Thursday, August 22, 2013
August 22nd 2013
Great King, who Was, Is, and Shall be...
It's been one of those days. You know, because You've been watching. Like you always do. Well, between getting over a cold, getting lost this morning, and how the normal work day stress, I came home today very, very, emotionally tired. Today was one of those days where I felt untalented, ungifted, and like I can't do anything right. Mom often says You make everyone perfect for their purpose in life, that You, the Great Potter, will use me to your will.
But how? And when? I'm almost 18 now, and I feel like adulthood is looming over me. I know what I want to do with my life, but I don't know what you want me to do with my life. People always say that You'll take lives in directions they never thought they'd go. Is that what You want for me? Or am I to have a normal life? Because normal isn't really my thing. I want to be out there! I want to join a protect and scream at congressmen. I wan to write a bestseller and amaze the world by giving the funds back to You. I want to raise a family as big as the Duggars, and share Your story as they have. But that's what I want.
Yahweh, I know that You have turned water to wine and that You have given the blind sight. But there are days where I think that those must have been so easy compared to leading me. I am such a pig-headed diva! I don't listen, I always want to be in charge, and I'll get lost in the woods before asking anyone for help. What use could Your kingdom have for me?
Luke 14:33 says" In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples." Lord I want to be one who is willing to give up everything for you, but more often I am the man who built his house on sand. Sure sand looks nicer that a big, old, boulder. And yes, I'd love to bring my friends in to show them my castle on the beach. But this isn't about my will. It's Yours. help me to not care what you give me, Lord. As long as I am my foundation is on Your rock, I'll try to follow joyfully. And with your help, I will.
Your submissive servant-
Moriah.
It's been one of those days. You know, because You've been watching. Like you always do. Well, between getting over a cold, getting lost this morning, and how the normal work day stress, I came home today very, very, emotionally tired. Today was one of those days where I felt untalented, ungifted, and like I can't do anything right. Mom often says You make everyone perfect for their purpose in life, that You, the Great Potter, will use me to your will.
But how? And when? I'm almost 18 now, and I feel like adulthood is looming over me. I know what I want to do with my life, but I don't know what you want me to do with my life. People always say that You'll take lives in directions they never thought they'd go. Is that what You want for me? Or am I to have a normal life? Because normal isn't really my thing. I want to be out there! I want to join a protect and scream at congressmen. I wan to write a bestseller and amaze the world by giving the funds back to You. I want to raise a family as big as the Duggars, and share Your story as they have. But that's what I want.
Yahweh, I know that You have turned water to wine and that You have given the blind sight. But there are days where I think that those must have been so easy compared to leading me. I am such a pig-headed diva! I don't listen, I always want to be in charge, and I'll get lost in the woods before asking anyone for help. What use could Your kingdom have for me?
Luke 14:33 says" In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples." Lord I want to be one who is willing to give up everything for you, but more often I am the man who built his house on sand. Sure sand looks nicer that a big, old, boulder. And yes, I'd love to bring my friends in to show them my castle on the beach. But this isn't about my will. It's Yours. help me to not care what you give me, Lord. As long as I am my foundation is on Your rock, I'll try to follow joyfully. And with your help, I will.
Your submissive servant-
Moriah.
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Friday, July 12, 2013
July 12th, 2013
To He who is Good but not tame-
While praying with one of my younger sisters tonight, I realized how much I've been letting my own prayers go slack.Please help me to see you as a friend to keep connected to on a day to day basis. Because you should be the one I think of day and night.
Love from-
Moriah
While praying with one of my younger sisters tonight, I realized how much I've been letting my own prayers go slack.Please help me to see you as a friend to keep connected to on a day to day basis. Because you should be the one I think of day and night.
Love from-
Moriah
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